trizfores and her fantasies in fanfic

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still continuing on that lmhg fic where both lucius and hermione are prisoners. i just finished the 5th chapter and had to take a break. believe me when i say that i have so many tears in my eyes just from writing it, or even thinking about it. so far, it truly is heart wrenching, that i had to take a break. i think amongst all the fanfics that i have written, this story to date is the heaviest one i've ever written.

no, i don't have any intentions of posting the fic anytime soon. like a said before, i am trying to discipline myself into posting only completed/finished fics. don't hate me for it because trust me, you'd hate me more if i left it hanging and abandoned.

still writing it at a wonderful pace--a chapter a day. no idea though how long it's going to be. and still no title for it either.

i know i should be working on ch27 of 'two roses,' which i haven't even starting writing yet, but hey, it's the bunnies making me write this lmhg non-stop.

will rest for now, and take a nap. it's a sunday anyways. maybe i'll even get to type another chapter later on.


for the past 2 days, my bunnies have been jumping up and down allowing me to type a chapter a day on one of my many wips. it's the story about hermione and lucius who are both prisoners in azkaban. this untitled story, i'm mentioned before in this entry here.

i don't what inspired my bunnies to suddenly work on it, but i'm going to take full advantage of the it. a chapter a day? that's already a lot of progress for me. who knows, maybe i can write more. anyways, so far i am 3 chapters in and excited to continue on with my hyped up bunnies.

type, type, typing away...


once again, i've had another sleepless night. the good news is that i got to finish writing ch26 of 'two roses.' i look at the clock now, and it's almost 5am. sleep has come and over taken me, that i've decided to upload the new chapter later on the in the afternoon or so.

i'm calling in a night.

night, night everyone, and sweet dreams...


i know it's been awhile since i've had a beta check on my fics, nonetheless, i think that my writing has improved. simple grammatical mistakes are starting to become things of the past. hopefully, a few of my betas will come back and check my work when they're not too busy with their pregnancies, or newborns.

seriously, i've had about 3 betas. one just gave birth yesterday, the other a few months ago. and last week, the third told me she's pregnant. what is it? my beta's are getting pregnant?! lol! actually, i asked one of them why this was happening to me--pregnant betas. her reply was that in most of my long fics, i make hermione pregnant one way or another. when i thought about it, it was so true.

beta for me, and get pregnant! lol!


i don't know why, but it's another one of those sleepless nights. it's 3am in the morning, and i haven't been able to get a single shuteye. counting sheep is useless, so here i am, typing away.

i wouldn't call it a wasteful amount of time, though i am complaining, wanting to really sleep. i've actually decided to start ch26 of 'two roses.' i'm barely 200 words in, with my brain functioning slow at this hour. -yawns-

as i've started it, i realized that it might be a little more difficult to write than the previous chapter. i don't know how i'm going to have sev tell hermione the truth. he'll have to break it to her gently, somehow. there's really no way out of it. she has to know. this is a difficult one.

why or why do my bunnies put me in this position?

brain not functioning right to even think of a solution now. well, i haven't gotten to that part yet, i think i can start with sev's flashback for now.

when will i sleep tonight? good thing it's a sunday.

~beabear (wishing to hibernate soon)

as promised, i just finished ch25 of 'two roses' mere minutes ago, and posted it up. it took a long while to do, but i must say, i am very pleased with the outcome. to date, it is the longest chapter in the story. and of course, ron-bashing baby! i'd have to say it's my finest bashing i ever did.

i also have to say that it was probably one of the hardest chapters i had to write comparing it with all my other stories. i may have written several fics on hermione being raped, but i never have written the actual rape scene until now. -sighs- it took a lot of energy from my bunnies and my brain. not complaining since i an more than happy with the outcome.

now i think i'll rest or watch dvds.


as of now, i'm about halfway through ch25 of 'two roses.' i'm getting there, but i'm just not so sure if i can finish it up by this weekend. i type something up and then delete it, and type again. it's a vicious circle when i'm trying to get something perfect. other than that, i am also thinking really hard on the next chapter or so with how hermione's going to react when the truth hits her about ron raping her. the next few chapters may be a little tougher for me to write, i know.

i always try to picture myself in hermione's shoes if i were to be in the situations that i write her in. how she'll react, her emotions, her pain, etc. and i am no stranger to pain as i do tend to vent out in my writing. on the plus side, what's the harm of me being hermione in my stories?  with severus, lucius and draco all being my men? yummy! :p

now that i think about it... maybe i am writing myself in the stories, imagining that perfect man to rescue me from this life of mine...


a lot of people have been asking or telling me to do a sequel for the dmhg fic that i did over valentine's called 'opposites attract.' well, honestly, in my opinion, it can do with a sequel or it stands well on its own. i myself am also torn if i should continue the oneshot or not. when i read it, part of me feels like i left the reader hanging, while the other part thinks that it just leaves enough for the imagination (just like one reader said in a review).

for now, i don't have any plans for doing a sequel. plot bunnies haven't thought of anything interesting to continue with it. but i am open to the idea of writing one. guess that time will come if any ideas come to mind.

right now, i am trying to continue typing ch25 of 'two roses.' it's a slow development, but this chapter does have to be perfect, as it is the climatic chapter in the story where the whole truth gets out. hoping to get things done, on or before the weekend.

got to go and get typing...


after leaving ch24 of 'two roses' with a cliffhanger, of course i knew that i had to get started with the next chapter as soon as i could. leaving chaps at cliffies is evil, and trust me, i've been  accused many times for doing such an act. but really, that just me, and where's the suspense without them?

anyways, i have started with ch25, but just barely--and i mean only one paragraph. my muses and my brain seem to have taken a break since i can't think much of writing now. maybe it's a writing hangover? is there even such a thing? i've posted 4 different things this past weekend, so yes, my muses have been working hard, especially for the valentine's fic. lousy excuse i know, but i just can't seem to write. i really should push things for ch25. it'll show what happened that night, over eight years ago. of course i'm thinking about making ron look like an arse yet again.

anyways, completely random muse thought... a plot kind of similar to 'child of new beginnings' but with lucius instead of severus. how does that sound? new idea for me amongst all the other ideas that i have for lmhg. it does sound a bit interesting, and challenging for me. i'll have to think about it some more, and maybe type up a chapter or 2 and see where things can go.

(no cliffies here...)


happy valentine's!

as promised, i just posted up my 3 little oneshots for this special day. really, i just did it a minute ago for all of you that have been waiting impatiently. the sshg one is entitled, 'gift of  three words.' the dmhg one is entitled 'opposites attract.' and lastly, the lmhg one is 'kissing booth.'

personally, i would have to say that 'kissing booth' is my favorite, because it's the humorous one among all 3. i don't have anyone special in my life right now, and a little pick me up is always good. i had a blast of laughs writing it, and i still laugh pretty much when i read it over and over again.

spread the love people! happy hearts day to you all!

~beabear (a little name that my friends call me)

finally, after weeks of not being able to complete chapter 24 of 'two roses,' i finished and posted it up just awhile ago. oh yes, it's a chapter filled with ron-bashing, and it will probably continue on in the next one. ron-bashing! ron-bashing! ron-bashing!

ah yes, my favorite sport as i spend most of my time thinking of fanfics and typing away when i can. no treadmill for me. never liked him. isn't it obvious? i don't think i ever wrote him as a true good friend to hermione in any of my fics. he's always the traitor and ends up hurting her very much.

time for me to go and think of more ways to torture him... lol!

oh, and tomorrow is valentine's! three fics all set and ready! :)


yes! finally! i am done, done, done with all the three oneshots that i had hopefully planned for this coming valentine's. i just finished the DMHG a minute ago, and i am very happy with it. there is no need to retype another. 2nd time's a charm? lol!

i can't wait for valentine's to post it. i'm sure though that you are more eager than i am to read it. it may be a long wait, but trust me, i think it's worth the wait.


it's in the middle of the night, and i am working on a new dramione plot for this valentine's. it's a story idea that popped into me head some hours ago. i couldn't sleep and thought i'd continue on trying to type it out, no matter how slow. i'm trying to make sure that i don't disappoint myself with it like the first one.

by the looks of things though, i am very happy with the first thousand words that i've typed. all i can say is the story is very sweet, and not to mention it has ron-bashing in it. ah, yes, my favorite sport. never really thought it would be possible in such a short fic, but it seems to be that way. oh, and did i mention it was sweet? i know how many of you love sweet dramione's.

now off i go, to continue with the sweet stuff.


yipee! i was able to write today and get something done. i am happy to say that the sshg fic for valentine's is finished. at first, i wanted it to be slightly funny because the lmhg one is quite hilarious. but it didn't turn out that way. my plot bunnies wanted something more serious and sensual--something with more depth. and that's what it ended up to be when i finished it.

i am more than pleased with it, and enjoyed the sweet lemony part of it when i reread the story. oh yes, we must enjoy our lemons. i'm sure i placed enough sugar in it. and you guys must have the ice bucket ready. lol!

i'll keep the title a secret for now, as it may be a dead give away for the plot. can't wait to post it!

as for a new dramione plot... nothing yet...


i don't know what has been happening to me the past few days, that i've written diddley squat. in simpler terms--nothing! it can't be writer's block because i have ideas in my head. typer's block? or am i really just down after that sucky dramione valentine fic that i wrote? damn... that might just be the answer.

anyways, it's not like i really haven't been doing anything. been getting around the fanfic world so to speak, and i was surprised at how many things that i discovered. one of them being plagiarism.

let me start of by saying... i hate, hate, hate it. i was totally outraged when i found out that many fanfic authors have plagiarized other authors. why they did it? i don't know. maybe they're not just damed too creative enough, that they have to copy one's story completely, word for word. and yes, sadly this has happened i have read. proof with screenshots and all. the only things that were changed were the characters name as they were written in a different fandom. still, it's damn wrong! and in another case, it just gets worse. some one even had the audacity to copy of a published book. again... wrong!

thankfully, no one has plagiarized my work, and i hope it stays that way, otherwise... i really don't know. i pray that something like that doesn't happen to my work.

just in case you guys want to know, the group that helps deal with plagiarism on lj is called stop_plagiarism. cases are posted as well as a list of the plagiarizers. it can be helpful to anyone of us fanfic writers, maybe you can help a fellow author out.

other than that, i've been spreading word about my stories on various lj communites. i feel like such an amateur compared to a few, as i am only popular by many on there are some that say that lj is the way to go and is for child like writers who are less than amateur, and i kid you not. that is the reputation of (i read it a few times in some journals). but come on?!

okay, in some cases, it's true, and others it's not. i've read terrible fics that seem like they've been done by teenagers who write like they're in the elementary school level. and in all honesty, i feel like they're fics shouldn't even be posted. but hey, this is the internet, and we can literally post anything we want. i think its freer than this free world we live in. when it comes to my writing however, i feel like it shouldn't be judged with the same low standards that people think of with the other fics on maybe if they checked it out, they would be surprised that there are a few good fics in the sight.

what's the harm in checking? i'm not trying to be ego-testicle or anything, but i really do believe my work is good, or even better than many others i've read. hey, i'm entitled to my opinion.

okay, i'll stop ranting now.


i slightly finished the untitled dmhg valentine's story the other day, and like i said in my previous post, there's a possibility that it will be a multichap fic. i've been contemplating on maybe making it a twoshot, or really a really long oneshot for awhile and read it over. i don't think i'll continue it or even post it anymore.

i'm honestly disappointed with it to say the least, and i can't really figure out why. i wrote a majority of the it for about two hours straight, and thought that it was okay. but i guess i was wrong. and my disappointment with it has evidently make me gloomy, and not want to write as much. thankfully though, i've managed to write just a bit.

a plot idea for the sshg valentine's came to mind. i'm slowly typing it out, loving the snarky and yet sweet snape that has come out--and we all know he won't admit it. lol!

but the disappointment of the dmhg fic has really slowed my writing down. my plot bunnies aren't hopping in my head. can someone please give me a few energizer batteries for my bunnies? was that a lame joke? trying to be funny here. might make me able to write some humor into my valentine fics like the lmhg one.

now, must try to make my snarky snape a little funny.


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GREETINGS! this blog was put up so that you readers would know what i'm doing with my fanfic writing, and anything else related to fanfic. i enjoy reading a few others myself. my stories revolve around hermione granger paired with one of my favorite 3 slytherins--severus snape, lucuis malfoy, and draco malfoy. snape of course is my true love. i think having a thing for alan rickman is the cause of it all. happy reading! :)


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i am 20 something year old that enjoys writing mainly fanfiction in the harry potter universe. i have other things that intrest me such as TV shows and movies, but writing my fanfic is what i do most. so far, it's been a blast posting my stories up on the net, and knowing that people enjoy my work. who knows, maybe one day i'll have my own book. no original stories yet in my mind, so it's just fanfic for now.