trizfores and her fantasies in fanfic

as of now, i'm about halfway through ch25 of 'two roses.' i'm getting there, but i'm just not so sure if i can finish it up by this weekend. i type something up and then delete it, and type again. it's a vicious circle when i'm trying to get something perfect. other than that, i am also thinking really hard on the next chapter or so with how hermione's going to react when the truth hits her about ron raping her. the next few chapters may be a little tougher for me to write, i know.

i always try to picture myself in hermione's shoes if i were to be in the situations that i write her in. how she'll react, her emotions, her pain, etc. and i am no stranger to pain as i do tend to vent out in my writing. on the plus side, what's the harm of me being hermione in my stories?  with severus, lucius and draco all being my men? yummy! :p

now that i think about it... maybe i am writing myself in the stories, imagining that perfect man to rescue me from this life of mine...

~bea