trizfores and her fantasies in fanfic

once again, i've had another sleepless night. the good news is that i got to finish writing ch26 of 'two roses.' i look at the clock now, and it's almost 5am. sleep has come and over taken me, that i've decided to upload the new chapter later on the in the afternoon or so.

i'm calling in a night.

night, night everyone, and sweet dreams...

~bea

i know it's been awhile since i've had a beta check on my fics, nonetheless, i think that my writing has improved. simple grammatical mistakes are starting to become things of the past. hopefully, a few of my betas will come back and check my work when they're not too busy with their pregnancies, or newborns.

seriously, i've had about 3 betas. one just gave birth yesterday, the other a few months ago. and last week, the third told me she's pregnant. what is it? my beta's are getting pregnant?! lol! actually, i asked one of them why this was happening to me--pregnant betas. her reply was that in most of my long fics, i make hermione pregnant one way or another. when i thought about it, it was so true.

beta for me, and get pregnant! lol!

~bea

i don't know why, but it's another one of those sleepless nights. it's 3am in the morning, and i haven't been able to get a single shuteye. counting sheep is useless, so here i am, typing away.

i wouldn't call it a wasteful amount of time, though i am complaining, wanting to really sleep. i've actually decided to start ch26 of 'two roses.' i'm barely 200 words in, with my brain functioning slow at this hour. -yawns-

as i've started it, i realized that it might be a little more difficult to write than the previous chapter. i don't know how i'm going to have sev tell hermione the truth. he'll have to break it to her gently, somehow. there's really no way out of it. she has to know. this is a difficult one.

why or why do my bunnies put me in this position?

brain not functioning right to even think of a solution now. well, i haven't gotten to that part yet, i think i can start with sev's flashback for now.

when will i sleep tonight? good thing it's a sunday.

~beabear (wishing to hibernate soon)

as promised, i just finished ch25 of 'two roses' mere minutes ago, and posted it up. it took a long while to do, but i must say, i am very pleased with the outcome. to date, it is the longest chapter in the story. and of course, ron-bashing baby! i'd have to say it's my finest bashing i ever did.

i also have to say that it was probably one of the hardest chapters i had to write comparing it with all my other stories. i may have written several fics on hermione being raped, but i never have written the actual rape scene until now. -sighs- it took a lot of energy from my bunnies and my brain. not complaining since i an more than happy with the outcome.

now i think i'll rest or watch dvds.

~bea

as of now, i'm about halfway through ch25 of 'two roses.' i'm getting there, but i'm just not so sure if i can finish it up by this weekend. i type something up and then delete it, and type again. it's a vicious circle when i'm trying to get something perfect. other than that, i am also thinking really hard on the next chapter or so with how hermione's going to react when the truth hits her about ron raping her. the next few chapters may be a little tougher for me to write, i know.

i always try to picture myself in hermione's shoes if i were to be in the situations that i write her in. how she'll react, her emotions, her pain, etc. and i am no stranger to pain as i do tend to vent out in my writing. on the plus side, what's the harm of me being hermione in my stories?  with severus, lucius and draco all being my men? yummy! :p

now that i think about it... maybe i am writing myself in the stories, imagining that perfect man to rescue me from this life of mine...

~bea

a lot of people have been asking or telling me to do a sequel for the dmhg fic that i did over valentine's called 'opposites attract.' well, honestly, in my opinion, it can do with a sequel or it stands well on its own. i myself am also torn if i should continue the oneshot or not. when i read it, part of me feels like i left the reader hanging, while the other part thinks that it just leaves enough for the imagination (just like one reader said in a review).

for now, i don't have any plans for doing a sequel. plot bunnies haven't thought of anything interesting to continue with it. but i am open to the idea of writing one. guess that time will come if any ideas come to mind.

right now, i am trying to continue typing ch25 of 'two roses.' it's a slow development, but this chapter does have to be perfect, as it is the climatic chapter in the story where the whole truth gets out. hoping to get things done, on or before the weekend.

got to go and get typing...

~bea

after leaving ch24 of 'two roses' with a cliffhanger, of course i knew that i had to get started with the next chapter as soon as i could. leaving chaps at cliffies is evil, and trust me, i've been  accused many times for doing such an act. but really, that just me, and where's the suspense without them?

anyways, i have started with ch25, but just barely--and i mean only one paragraph. my muses and my brain seem to have taken a break since i can't think much of writing now. maybe it's a writing hangover? is there even such a thing? i've posted 4 different things this past weekend, so yes, my muses have been working hard, especially for the valentine's fic. lousy excuse i know, but i just can't seem to write. i really should push things for ch25. it'll show what happened that night, over eight years ago. of course i'm thinking about making ron look like an arse yet again.

anyways, completely random muse thought... a plot kind of similar to 'child of new beginnings' but with lucius instead of severus. how does that sound? new idea for me amongst all the other ideas that i have for lmhg. it does sound a bit interesting, and challenging for me. i'll have to think about it some more, and maybe type up a chapter or 2 and see where things can go.

(no cliffies here...)

~bea